Seems that my adventure is over for now.

I ordered a package 4 months ago from darkweb containing 25x 110ug. It never came, so i ordered one more time, and it arrived. I thought the first package disappeared in the shipping process somehow.

But yesterday, two armed cops raided my home and said that the customs caught it. I was completely in shock. They asked me about this infront of my family, and god. You should have seen their faces. (All of them believe that you see dragons on this stuff, and that you're going crazy after a time or two) So i confessed because i don't have the ability to lie. They had a search warrant, and searched through all my stuff. I was lucky enough to have nothing at all, so they left. And i sat there, explaining how this magnificent little thing changed me to something better to my family. My anxiety is gone, i have a better view on life, and the most important thing; It cured my stage-fright. Music is the only dream and thing i want to do, but the stage-fright has blocked me from believing that my ambitions can be fulfilled. I will forever be thankful to Lucy, and as i said to my family; I will never regret doing this.

So im going for a questioning in a couple of weeks i guess. Then i will go to court, and i will get my sentence. I'll cross my fingers that it will work out. (Its extremely strict in this country...).

So i just wanted to say; Rock on Psychonauts. You are creating History with every trip. Psychedelics is the new door to deeper thoughts and ideas which will make the world a better place in the future. I don't blame my family for judging me. They just don't know about its ability to change lives yet. All this propaganda and misleading information will disappear with time, And the revolution has just begun. So continue fighting friends, and safe tripping! My adventure may have come to an end for now, but i'm not sad. Lucy's job is done, and she managed to fix me.

But i will still miss her. We will meet again, queen. So I can run through the woods again With my HD-goggles barefoot >:D

EDIT 1: Deleted the picture of myself. Also wanna thank everybody for the kind words and support. I will figure this out somehow =)

EDIT 2: To those saying "WHY DID YOU CONFESS OMFGGG"; You see, i have never been into any kind of trouble. Good grades at school, great social life, etc. This was new to me. Of course i regret doing it... But man, I stood there, with two armed cops, and my dad, the thoughest man ive ever met. Hes a X-veteran from the gulfwar with PTSD and hes hard as fuck. I have been smoking pot for two years now and it ruined him when he found out. He was totally convinced that i was gonna dedicate my life to this and move over to harder drugs. But for two weeks ago, we could finally talk like ive never touched it. I guess he understood that i only used it because of my depressive states. When this shit happend, he stood behind them, and i will never forget that moment. You should have seen his face. When things finally started to work out, this came and screwed it all up. And don't fucking tell me that you think clearly when the old man starts to tear up infront of you for the first time in your life. Ive lied so much to my dad, and i can never forgive myself for it. I just wouldn't do it anymore.

You see, the two cops was only "couriers". They only gave me the letter, and i told them that its true. they didn't tape it or anything, they said ok, and said that they had to search the house. I don't even think that i will see them in court. They weren't really asking any questions. Just if i had drugs or other things in the house. They didn't find anything. So the only provement they have is the letter that the custom took, and me saying that it was me.

I will not say the name of my country. Why? I have a plan now. I don't know if i have the balls to set it up, but man. This might actually work. i'll think about it, and update. I can't reveal the plan, but i'll give some tips. (Don't be afraid of the police finding this out. I'm living in a very small town, and the court-buildning nearby is nothing.. they will definitely not try to trace up this stuff, but i'll try to ride as safe as possible.

Updates will come.

EDIT 3: I Will probably get a lawyer so i can try to find a way through this. I'll tell you guys when i'll get updates about the questioning and stuff myself. (Yes, i will be careful about leaking TMI) Thanks for all the help and wise words. Again; I'm not you. I have my own subjective perception of the world and its fears. We react differently about things like this when it occurs. Whatever happens with me, this will set an example on how fucked up the War On drugs is. Maybe i'll write about the stuff happening with my family, financial, or life. So the world can read a boy's personal story on how the system fucked up things for him, and not the drug itself. Thanks again.